ReBirth

I haven't written down my thoughts in a really long time, at least for me. I used to write because I wanted to get out my negative feelings to the world or impress certain people. I felt tonight like writing simply because I missed it as a bygone method of personal expression.

Once upon a time I was a college graduate without a lick of sense on where to take my life. I was twenty three years old and completely sure I had NO IDEA where to go. I had no local friends and little to no money. Six years later, I'm living in another city with my girlfriend, a new car, and a few people I call friends. There was some stuff that happened in the middle but if you really wanna know about or revisit that stuff just log back into your old myspace account and read my old blogs.

There is something truly insidious about growing up and growing old. The longer you live the more there is too look back upon and miss. I just finished watching the finale of a show that made me think to life gone by. The finale of Greek ended with all the characters growing up. The ending felt abrupt and a bit of a scraped together of elements to tie up the series. I feel like that's the way my life has been going. I feel as though a lot more responsibility has been dumped upon me lately. The idea is that Life is forcing me to look past the way things were and move on. I mean if you think too much about how things were then you're not enjoying how things are and delaying how they could be.

If I were to go back and read my old blogs I think first, well I'd be embarrassed, and second sad that I spent sooooo much time dwelling on things that were already past. I think I ran out of reasons to dwell at some point. I'm not saying there has been a grand transformation on who I am. I am saying I'm looking forward to seeing who I can be.

This will be a new format. I don't know how often I'll write but I shall try to write more often. I will also explore trying to write on more varied topics. I've missed writing, hopefully this will be the start of something more.

-S