Getting It Out

I know I miss you
and that would be enough
if it weren't for
these feelings of
anxiety and
mistrust.

It's hard you know
for me to be
calm and accepting
of thoughts,
feelings,
or anything else, I can't
see.

Cheating, Lying and
Infidelity
Are not words I'd think of
when describing the
pain
and doubt
in me.

I knew you loved me
I know it's true
however
time, distance, and
absence can
diminish or obliterate the
feelings in
you.

I hope it's only worry
and an adjustment like
you said
But every new day
I fear brings the
inevitable end
instead.

-S